What a year 2014 has been! This, by far, has been the toughest and most challenging year of my life. But, it’s also been a year full of blessings. I’ve had the privilege of watching my son transform from a sweet baby to a mischievous one year old. I’ve watched him meet many milestones and kick his extra chromosome’s butt! He is a fighter and his strength and resilience through open heart surgery and chemo simply amazes me.
I’ve also had the privilege to walk this tough year with the most amazing man and partner in life. He leads our family strongly, calms my fears with his unwavering faith and trust in God, and can always make me laugh, even in the least desirable circumstances. Our relationship has been tested, especially in these past couple of months while we’ve practically been living in the hospital, watching our son suffer. But, through the tests, our relationship has grown stronger and deeper.
I have learned a lot about trials and tests this year. God does not enjoy seeing us suffer, in fact, Psalm 56:8 says “You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book?” God loves us and does not put us through trials to see us hurt. I have learned that through trials, if you are willing to seek God, He will be faithful to meet you in that place. Your trial will not be in vain. He will grow and mature your faith. He will comfort you with his mercies and grace, and give you strength. What a sweet and intimate thing it is to go through trials with God.
I am so thankful for the work that He is doing in my life. Without the trials of this year, my faith would not be where it is today. I would not be the woman that I am today. I have found a joy in life that I never knew possible. A joy that I couldn’t experience without the sadness and sorrow that I’ve felt at times this year. I have also found an extreme gratitude for everything the Lord has blessed me with. I couldn’t feel this gratitude without feeling like everything was taken away from me at times this year.
This year has been filled with many tears, fears, worries, feelings of distance from God, and complete desperation of crying out to God petitioning on behalf of Mason’s life; but it has also been filled with unending joy, laughter, stronger relationships with family and friends, and new people who have come into our life. I have never felt so cared for and loved by our family, church family, friends- new and old, than I have this year. It takes a village to raise a child and God knew we needed a mighty one. He was faithful to surround us with the best village this year.
2015 is going to continue to hold a mighty battle for us. But, I’m excited to see relationships grow, the work God does in our lives and the lives around us, and see Mason CURED OF CANCER! Goodbye 2014, here’s to a new year!